Chanukah….Day 3 Reflections

Posted by on Dec 14, 2017 | 4 comments

Yes, it is only Day 3 of the Festival of Lights….another day to ‘see’ and ‘do’. Reflection of oneself can sometimes be difficult, sometimes not so pretty, sometimes a bit melancholy. And while I’m trying to focus on personal habits and nuances that need a bit tweaking in my own life, it seems that today has a  mind of its own. As our home settles back down after a whirlwind Chanukah party, toys picked up, bits of food rubbed free from the carpeting and tables and chairs put back in place, memories start drifting in and out of the atmosphere.  The quietness...

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Hanukkah musings…..

Posted by on Dec 12, 2017 | 2 comments

It’s true – Hanukkah or Chanukah or however you want to spell it, is simply, in the Hebrew mindset, a FESTIVAL OF LIGHTS! It is not a commandment or appointed gathering, but it is a celebration of freedom over tyranny and oppression. And, it surely is a great excuse to get the family and friends together, eat fried food (love those latkes!), play dreidel and enjoy holiday traditions. Time for you to tell the story of how a few rag-tag believers had victory over the strongest of enemies – and make it personal! When researching the traditions of Hanukkah, many have been...

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November 7, 2017

Posted by on Nov 7, 2017 | 0 comments

Well, today is my youngest son’s 42nd birthday. He is not here. At least not in this time realm. But he is still ‘with us’ – everything we hear, see and feel somehow touches the essence of who he really was … how the God we serve ‘sees’ him. That is how I see him now… perfected … waiting to be crowned for his tender and loving spirit … acknowledged for his desire to rise above the tribulations of his short life … and most of all for his heart after the ways of his King. Like all of us still in this time realm, he fell, he...

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Mercy Me….Even If….

Posted by on Oct 31, 2017 | 0 comments

Mercy me….Even If…. The words of this song….have captured my heart and wrapped it’s message into my life. From the heartache of being estranged from our oldest son and family, to the separation of his time away now, to the passing of my youngest son…. ….I know He is able….I know He...

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Three weeks and counting

Posted by on Oct 17, 2017 | 22 comments

Yes….this is a personal post again. It is therapy for me. It has been three weeks yesterday that the Lincoln county sheriff knocked on our door. It has been three weeks yesterday since our world fell apart. It has been three weeks yesterday since our baby boy (even if he WAS 41), Jason Scott Staley, left this world for another. Three weeks. A lifetime. An eternity. Jason was my baby …. he came into this world smiling. He was a sweet, compassionate, loving and easy-going child and carried that on through adulthood. His blonde hair and blue eyes captivated everyone that met him and...

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First Day….new dawn

Posted by on Oct 1, 2017 | 24 comments

First Day….new dawn

Today is the first day of the week … the day after my son, Jason was laid to rest. It is still surreal. I find myself asking – am I still here? I hear people talking in the background, my mother is keeping the two littlest granddaughters busy ….. making sukkah decorations, chattering nonstop…my brother is sitting across from me on his computer and my father is recuperating from eating too much sugary food yesterday.  My husband? He’s off trying to fix something – keeping busy. I tried. Went out to water the garden….pull some weeds, clip some...

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