Three weeks and counting

Posted by on Oct 17, 2017 | 22 comments

Yes….this is a personal post again. It is therapy for me. It has been three weeks yesterday that the Lincoln county sheriff knocked on our door. It has been three weeks yesterday since our world fell apart. It has been three weeks yesterday since our baby boy (even if he WAS 41), Jason Scott Staley, left this world for another. Three weeks. A lifetime. An eternity. Jason was my baby …. he came into this world smiling. He was a sweet, compassionate, loving and easy-going child and carried that on through adulthood. His blonde hair and blue eyes captivated everyone that met him and...

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First Day….new dawn

Posted by on Oct 1, 2017 | 22 comments

First Day….new dawn

Today is the first day of the week … the day after my son, Jason was laid to rest. It is still surreal. I find myself asking – am I still here? I hear people talking in the background, my mother is keeping the two littlest granddaughters busy ….. making sukkah decorations, chattering nonstop…my brother is sitting across from me on his computer and my father is recuperating from eating too much sugary food yesterday.  My husband? He’s off trying to fix something – keeping busy. I tried. Went out to water the garden….pull some weeds, clip some...

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Posted by on Sep 26, 2017 | 17 comments

Today is day 3 of my son, Jason, passing out of this life …. the pain is unbearable – but it helps me to put words on paper – I pray that this does not offend anyone by doing so. It is simply my outlet for grief … This is the Hebrew month of Tishrei – day 6. Jason celebrated the Feast Days of the Lord and was a very deeply spiritual person – not like your everyday church going person – but a very special deep, soul. An inquiring, sensitive, probing soul. We were going thru the days together as we approach the Feast day of Sukkot – or some call it...

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Another milestone….

Posted by on May 27, 2017 | 1 comment

My second born grand daughter, MacKenzie Staley, graduated yesterday from highschool. How could that be? She is still just a little tow headed little toddler? And I bet I’m not the only one that feels that way – eh Jay & Nicci? Sigh…..time marches on. ‘Kenzie’ is a beautiful, sweet, gentle and loving young lady. She is way too grown up for her age of course, but she has come thru the trials of her short life in grand style. Her beauty comes from the inside … and we are so proud of her! As we sit at your graduation, my dear, watching you ‘walk the...

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Help needed

Posted by on Feb 15, 2017 | 5 comments

Jim & I find ourselves in the uncomfortable position of reaching out and asking for help. We prayed and sought our hearts and advise from friends and family on how to handle this – as we are of the ‘age’ and generation where you do it all yourself. However, we simply can’t and need to reach out. Jim and I bought this ‘last ever’ house three years ago and  were so blessed – we still believe that. It was a foreclosure and it was something we could financially afford as we both are retired and on Social Security. Unfortunately – the last 18...

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Chanukah….Day 3 Reflections

Posted by on Dec 26, 2016 | 4 comments

Yes, it is only Day 3 of the Festival of Lights….another day to ‘see’ and ‘do’. Reflection of oneself can sometimes be difficult, sometimes not so pretty, sometimes a bit melancholy. And while I’m trying to focus on personal habits and nuances that need a bit tweaking in my own life, it seems that today has a  mind of its own. As our home settles back down after a whirlwind Chanukah party, toys picked up, bits of food rubbed free from the carpeting and tables and chairs put back in place, memories start drifting in and out of the atmosphere.  The quietness...

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