The Back Roads…..Have You Been There?

Posted by on May 10, 2021 in All Posts, Journey thru Garden, Journey to Health | 0 comments

The Back Roads…..Have You Been There?

The Back Roads…..Have You Been There?

Speaking of those back roads…..have you traveled any? Can you look in your rear-view mirror of life and draw from your past? Most, probably all of us, are able to do a look-see. Those smooth sailing, easy joy riding times were actually …. truth be told are the ones when you were on vacation! The back roads are our typical day to day journey – juggling this and maneuvering around that and screeching to halts when something appears in the middle of the road.

At least, that’s how I feel about all the back roads I’ve traveled. One of my early back roads was taking a detour from my predetermined road of a religion. Leaving the Catholic Church was not an easy decision….and yet, it was not difficult either. As one who has always been a searcher of ‘truth‘, always searching for answers and open to more than one opinion, I’ve never been  one to stay on the main road. Ever. And to be honest, those back roads are so much more interesting than whizzing by on the interstate with everything going by in a flash of color!

Taking the unconventional side road has led me many times to the various countries – Mexico, Costa Rico, Hawaii, and best of all Israel – many times! Each back road adventure equipped my tool kit with newfangled wrenches, hammers and whatchamacallits. Those tools equipped me to share my deepest passion, truths that I found along the way. Truth in organized religion, truth in equality, truth in life.

That first big side road that was taken away from organized religion led me on twists and turns and finally back into the first pages of the Bible. While I slowly turned those ancient pages, the stories of my ancestors came alive, questions arose that needed answers and a new side road emerged around the corner. Those stories, became my story … and I’m still walking them out along those ever emerging side roads. Come on, join me!

Highway or Back Roads?

Posted by on May 9, 2021 in All Posts, Journey thru Garden, Pams Ponderings | 0 comments

Highway or Back Roads?


Some say we travel on the highway of life. And most would agree – as they hit the gas and go full speed, never looking back. However, some of us find ourselves somewhere down a lonely back road…a well rutted, dusty, well-traveled back road. Those ruts seem to tell the story that many have gone before us. We have left the fast lane, the truckers, the various exits to this and that and have chosen our own way. Our way is undetermined, unproven, and sometimes, even uninhabited. But, it’s our road. A road that we have chosen to follow when common sense would have said stay on the highway – but we are the adventurous type. The trail-blazing type. That was years ago. Now, it’s time to slow down and take a look in the rear view mirror….a slow sigh of relief escapes and a smile traces its way across my face all the while saying, ‘wow, what a trip’.

‘Wow….what a trip’

And trip it was, and hopefully there is still a little more tread on the tires to keep us going for a few more years, but if not – ‘wow what a trip’.

Happy Mother’s Day

Posted by on May 9, 2021 in All Posts, Journey thru Garden | 0 comments

Happy Mother’s Day

To my Mother of 69 years … and my grandmothers before her…

Thank you Mom for being there for me in every little thing in my life!

  • Thank you for raising me in a safe and loving environment, giving me a childhood full of hope, and joy and miracles.
  • Thank you for steering me through those teen age years, those learning to drive times and helping me figure things out ‘with those boys’.
  • Thank you for being supportive and loving and giving your all when I decided to marry my highschool sweetheart at the tender age of 18
  • Thank you for being there when my first baby was born and staying with me that first week …. and always be a phone call away.
  • Thank you for giving me your undivided attention whenever I called with a question or needed encouragement when I didn’t know how to handle a situation being a ‘mom’ myself.
  • Thank you for being there through my children’s adolescence, through my concerns about them getting married themselves and lending a helping hand as we became empty nesters.
  • Thank you for opening your home and hearts to Jim & I when we came back from Costa Rica and had no place to hang our hats
  • Thank you for being there for me when my own son, Jason, went thru his time of leaving us and passed into the next time realm….and holding my hand when a year later Jim joined him.
  • Thank you for being so kind and open to being there for me in this last leg of our journey.
  • Thank you …. thank you …. thank you … for just being you!


Stopping in the middle of the road…

Posted by on May 5, 2021 in All Posts, Journey to Health | 0 comments

Stopping in the middle of the road…


Yes, life is full of pot-holes and the road you are on will always have twists and turns, ups and downs. Always. It’s a guarantee in a world of non-guarantees.

But there is a difference on how you travel that pot-filled road…a difference between smooth-sailing and stalled out. It’s all in how you approach the road. Approaching the terrain full of trepidation, negativity and apprehension will always make those pot-holes seem a whole lot bigger than they actually are.  Traveling the same road knowing that your tires are in good shape, your navigation system is working and you have confidence in the outcome makes a world of difference. It’s all in your perspective!

So as we travel those rocky paths, or pot-filled roads, looking for those green fields or smooth roads, let’s remember what Psalm 23 says … from a different perspective. I think you’ll get the picture!

Potholes…what are they good for?

Posted by on Apr 27, 2021 in All Posts | 0 comments

The Other Side

So let’s look at the other side of the pothole….or is there another side?

Well, I guess if you want to look at the other side, you would most probably have to be on the other side….right? And to be on the other side…well, you’d have to be IN the hole looking out. That’s an interesting concept to wrap your brain around isn’t it?

But, let’s take a deep breath and think about this for a moment. If you’re on the other side of the situation/circumstance/pothole …. than you’ll have a totally different perspective of that issue. Right? So, let’s try to ‘see‘ it from within and find out what happens.

First of all – looking at it from this angle, should definitely give us a totally different perspective! Our viewpoint from this angle should widen and deepen in ways we would not have expected. From the other side of the pothole the hole widens as we view the situation differently. Instead of looking down into a narrow hole, we are looking UP into the great expanse! Oh my….ponder on that for a minute my friend…we are LOOKING UP! And if we are looking up, than there is an automatic great advantage!

That advantage? Well, it’s the One who is looking down 🙂 … we are meeting each other eye to eye and we are now looking up to find the answer rather than staring down into a dirty old hole. As we gaze up into the great I AM … scriptures run through my mind. Scriptures such as:

Proverbs 3:5-6  Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.

Psalm 40:17  But I am poor and needy; yet the LORD thinks upon me. You are my help and my deliverer; do not delay, O my God.

Psalm 115:11  You who fear the LORD, trust in the LORD; He is their help and their shield.

Psalm 121:2 My help comes from the LORD, who made heaven and earth.

Isaiah 41:10 Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.

Isaiah 41:13 For I, the LORD your God, will hold your right hand, saying to you, ‘Fear not, I will help you.

So what’s the take away? Next time you faced with a situation, a pothole, a circumstance that looks, from all appearances, to big to go around ~ look at it from a different perspective. ‘See’ it with His eyes!



Bigger Bump

Posted by on Apr 19, 2021 in All Posts | 0 comments

Bigger Bump

Yep…that was a bigger bump than I first anticipated!

Oh my…..Went into that turn thinking it was a small but memorable bump in the road, but little did I see that it was a whole (hole) lot deeper than it looked! No wonder horses don’t like to step in puddles … you never know how deep it really is!

Let me explain myself, as it is a twofold bump. At first glance it simply looked like a bump where you just swerve and miss it – thereby they tell me you save your tire tread … or something. But the closer I got, the bigger it got, and there as no denying, it was more like a sinkhole than a bump. And down I went. That night of hardly breathing ended up being almost a week of nightly gasps for air and daily fatigue laden black-outs. The fog was just getting a bit too thick for me.

As I said, when in distress, re-evaluate. Well, I did and realized that while fighting through something definitely is important …. so is breathing while fighting through it! So, yes, a puff or 2 at night on the dreaded inhaler had to be taken back up. At first I really beat myself up over this decision, but after being able to breathe like a normal person became a bit more apparent, it was greeted each nite with anticipation. Not the anticipation of welcoming an old friend, but the anticipation that breathing helps sleeping and sleeping helps rebuild your immune system. So while I do plan on being released from the dreaded fumes in that little tube, tonight, if needed, I will breathe.

If you are dealing with a breathing problem and seeking for relief, don’t give up. Those bumps in the road might just be there to slow you down a bit. This is the time of evaluation during the season of the Omer, and if you don’t know what that is, it’s another amazing time that our Heavenly Father gave to us to ‘check our thermostat’. It began with the Sabbath after Passover and 50 days later is the giving of the Torah .. His loving instructions for His children….Shavuot or Pentecost.

So maybe His Journey … is the Journey we need to be on…re-evaluating my own journey by lighting it with His Feast Days (Leviticus 23) illuminates the potholes and puts them in the light they need to be in.  After all, >HE< said they are >HIS< Feasts….we’re invited!

23 And the Lord spake unto Moses, saying, 2 Speak unto the children of Israel, and say unto them, Concerning the feasts of the Lord, which ye shall proclaim to be holy convocations, even these are my feasts.


Bumps In The Journey

Posted by on Apr 8, 2021 in All Posts, Journey to Health | 0 comments

Bumps In The Journey

The Journey still has Potholes

Well….last night was a bump in the road…a pothole that truly gave my body a jolt. After having a really good 3 nites of rest, the persistent, non-forgiving hacking cough was back….for hours. As soon as I would lie down, the rumble would begin deep in my chest, wind its way up to my throat and threaten to choke until there was no escaping THE COUGH! Oh how I hate that cough! It is from the pits, and while I tried to pray and strengthen my spirit with good thoughts…the hacking would not stop until I got back up. After nebulizing food grade Hydrogen Peroxide and walking around at 11:30pm….air was finally recognized as belonging in my lungs and made life a little more bearable. Yeah…I know … that was kinda dramatic … but hey – it’s my blog! And I know that I know that someone out there knows exactly how it feels!

As I said in my first post on this journey blog, it’s a new protocol that I’m following ~ thank you Jason ~ and I knew there would be a few potholes….but hey, a gal can hope and pray can’t she? Well, I am a realist too, so I knew they kinda lurked around the corner, but last night took me by surprise. The previous nites had lulled me into a false sense of security. However, that being said, for those of you fighting any type of ‘breathing‘ problem (and I don‘t just mean physical) just take a step back, re-evaluate and begin again. At least, that’s what I’m doing at this point. Not giving up…nope, not in this lifetime…or the next!

Blogging about this is part of my therapy – keeping track of how it feels, good or bad, encourages me to keep on moving, one step at a time. Maybe blogging, or keeping a journal will help you as well? Tracking your progress on your path is a great way to objectively evaluate what works and what doesn’t. Sometimes we need to step outside the situation (be it physical or spiritual), look with ‘new‘ eyes and see events from a different perspective. Sometimes, it is even wise (and it usually is ALWAYS the case) to ask for outside help so that you can see that which you could not.  So, here’s to all of us fighting the good fight! KEEP GOING!

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. – Isaiah 41:10



The Journey Continues

Posted by on Apr 6, 2021 in All Posts, Journey to Health | 0 comments

The Journey Continues


As another day comes to an end (which makes day four), it is difficult to say whether I am experiencing a placebo effect or the real thing. At this point, I’ll choose the real thing! It is day three of being able to actually go through almost all the nite with a great night’s sleep! And what a good nights sleep can do! Simply amazing.

The new protocol that I’ve been following is not extremely different than what I’ve been doing, but it is different. A few supplements that I wouldn’t have thought of and some that I already had, taking them differently. Again, what a difference! Of course, I know that there are still mountain still to climb and hurdles to jump through, but I feel at least I have a fighting chance now.

Giving credit to where credit is due has always been one of my top priorities…so I want to thank my new/old friend from Canada ~ Jason ~ who has become more like a son to me than he will ever know. He is kind, and compassionate and freely gives in service to the Holy One! And….he loves his momma…and takes time to lend a hand to other mommas. And this momma sure does appreciate him! Actually – he comes with much experience, as he was a pre-med student who would not go through with the degree due to the politics and the extensive ties to the pharmaceutical giants. And his helping others isn’t limited to those in need of medical guidance, he is skilled in the video/graphics art area as well! He has volunteered his services to several ministries and the Holy One puts him exactly where he is needed and when he is needed.

It is indeed a very small world…..

May the Holy One bless and encourage all those that extend helping hands ~ no matter where or when they are needed!

Have a great evening beloved friends,

~ Pam~

Do not withhold good from those to whom it is due, when it is in your power to act. Proverbs 11:25

Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ.  Galatians 6:2

God is not unjust; he will not forget your work and the love you have shown him as you have helped his people and continue to help them.  Hebrews 6:10

Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you. Luke 6:38

Give to the one who asks you, and do not turn away from the one who wants to borrow from you.  Matthew 5:42

….not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of the others. Philippians 2:4

The generous will themselves be blessed, for they share their food with the poor.  Proverbs 22:9

What good is it, my brothers and sisters, if someone claims to have faith but has no deeds? Can such faith save them? Suppose a brother or a sister is without clothes and daily food.  If one of you says to them, “Go in peace; keep warm and well fed,” but does nothing about their physical needs, what good is it?  In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead.  James 2:14-17

“Last Day” Ponderings

Posted by on Apr 3, 2021 in All Posts, Pams Ponderings, Parsha Table Talk | 0 comments

“Last Day” Ponderings

 LAST DAY? What last day?

Dear Mishpocha (family),

Today, on the calendar that I follow for the Feast Days, it is the last day of the Feast of Unleavened Bread, following Passover and then First Fruits (Lev 23:9-14). For some of you, Easter comes tomorrow and you will be celebrating the Resurrection then. To reconcile the two, one can also read I Cor. 15:20-23 where Paul speaks about Jesus being the First Fruits. Either way, those of us that follow the God of Israel and our Messiah Yeshua (Jesus) rejoice in the Son overcoming evil and paving the way for all of us to return to the Father! HalleluYAH! May all of us join together in rejoicing that HE has RISEN!

For those that are not familiar with the Feasts described for all His people in the Scriptures, let me explain a bit concerning the ponderings of Pam on this day of Unleavened Bread. This is the day that the Israelites crossed the Red (Reed) Sea. In Exodus 14:9-10 it says:

“9. Then the Egyptians chased after them [the children of Israel] with all the horses and chariots of Pharaoh, his horsemen and his army, and they overtook them camping by the sea, beside Pi-hahiroth, in front of Baal-zephon. 10. As Pharaoh drew near, the sons of Israel looked, and behold, the Egyptians were marching after them, and they became very frightened; so the sons of Israel cried out to YHVH.”

Read that scripture again….do you feel that you are at the edge of a sea of circumstances with the enemy close behind and there is no way to cross over to the other side? Do you feel that there are enemies behind you that are drawing near, step by step, ready to conquer and overwhelm you? Well, there are many of us feeling the sand wash away beneath our feet as we stand waiting for our salvation! Just as the Mighty Hand reached down and parted those seas so that His people in that day could walk through on dry land, He is faithful to do so for us today.

Read the words of  our King as he brushed aside the waters: Exodus 14:13-15 says,

“13. But Moses said to the people, “Do not fear! Stand by and see the salvation of YHVH which He will accomplish for you today; for the Egyptians whom you have seen today, you will never see them again forever. 14.  YHVH will fight for you while you keep silent. ” 15. Then YHVH said to Moses, “Why are you crying out to Me? Tell the sons of Israel to go forward.”

Now……it says in Exodus 14:19-22,

“19.  The angel of Elohim, who had been going before the camp of Israel, moved and went behind them; and the pillar of cloud moved from before them and stood behind them. 20. So it came between the camp of Egypt and the camp of Israel; and there was the cloud along with the darkness, yet it gave light at night. Thus the one did not come near the other all night. 21.  Then Moses stretched out his hand over the sea; and YHVH swept the sea back by a strong east wind all night and turned the sea into dry land, so the waters were divided. 22.  The sons of Israel went through the midst of the sea on the dry land, and the waters were like a wall to them on their right hand and on their left.”

As you read these verses, let us realize that WE stood at those waters as well! We stood there then and we stand now at the waters of freedom. We are told to NOT FEAR and to STAND and see HIS SALVATION! If we KEEP SILENT (get that part Pamela?? slapping my hand upside my head – QUIT BELLYACHING – OY VEY!) Even today there is a pillar of cloud and of fire….surrounding us as we go forward. HE encompasses us and will lead us through to freedom!

So, today … as we emerge out of this festival season, let us recognize and walk forward ~ away from whatever enemy chases us in our pursuit of freedom! Let us keep our eyes on the prize and let us not be weighted down by unbelief!



Sing the song of Moses with me …. and claim your REDEMPTION!

Blessings family,




Day 3 of the “JOURNEY”

Posted by on Apr 2, 2021 in All Posts, Journey to Health | 2 comments

Day 3 of the “JOURNEY”

Welcome back….

and hope you took a few minutes to take note of your own ‘timeline’. Were you able to think of some potholes that might have tripped you up in the past? I know I sure did! Oh my, I didn’t realize how many potholes were in this winding, up and down highway … and it caused me to step back and ponder a bit. AND….as I stepped back to view that scene a little better, my vision shifted ~ mountaintops slowly overpowered the scene. How beautiful! Glorious, majestic mountaintops where once I stood so joyous on their peaks!

How beautiful upon the mountains are the feet of him who brings good news, who publishes peace, who brings good news of happiness, who publishes salvation, who says to Zion, “Your God reigns.”  Isaiah 52:7

As we travel this road back in time together, let’s remember to keep a balance….everything we encounter along the highway of life contributed to the person we are today. So, let’s get started….honesty moment…

The last two days have been extremely difficult for me as I try to wean myself off of the dreaded, life-draining prednisone that the white coats insist is my only option. Unfortunately, while I admire the advances in medicine that have been made and acknowledge the life-saving measures that have come forth through the years, sometimes one wonders if there is anything else other than antibiotics and prednisone in that little black bag of theirs. Do they even carry that little black bag anymore? It is more than a little disappointing that the ‘whole‘ person isn’t treated and the focus is only on one particular symptom….all while trying to explain everything in the allotted 15 minutes given to each patient. Sigh….. it’s a difficult road trying to retrain the body to heal itself! But I’m determined to do so ~ and to find the whole person within and heal her too.

Ok, back to the highway timeline. Late into the night, staring at the ceiling as sleep evaded me, I searched back into time and tried to spend a few minutes looking deep into those smaller potholes that led to my roadblock of today. It actually was quite medicinal and satisfying to step outside the proverbial box and look down (or up) as I was able to float around those situations, those circumstances, and see it for what it really was. A step. Just a step forward. That first major encounter of the leaving of my ancestral past in the late 70’s was a catapult. That first step enabled me to take the next step, and the next and then the next. Maybe this pothole is just a bit bigger than I had first imagined.

Sensing the entire range of emotions that ‘leaving‘ elicited, the heartache, the rejection, the excitement and the apprehension, it dawned on me (literally) that those were all excellent God-given feelings! Each and every one of those emotions – even the anger and the frustrationall were given by my Creator. What was needed was to find the balance and the deeper meaning of life in each experience. What is needed is to sort out those feelings, the reasons they were experienced and most of all – how I handled each. I must admit….some of those situations were not handled in the best of ways. Chalk it up to inexperience, youth or whatever, life is a learning experience, and sometimes we need to re-evaluate the how’s and why’s.

One of the things I realized, was that because I felt all those feelings above during my leaving pothole experience, I compensated with having a need for more ‘knowledge‘. Why? Because having more knowledge would arm me for those nasty little daggers thrown by loved ones and friends through glaring stairs and vociferous rebuttals concerning my decision. And believe me, I armed myself very, very well. I had a boatload of flaming arrows of ‘truth‘ to throw at them. My new found ‘knowledge‘ was my armor to protect me. But, sometimes, armor rusts, arrows break, and shields get to heavy to hold up.

So, now I can rewind that reel and press the go button from a different point of view. That young girl that eventually left her well known, comfortable and easy setting of churchianity, actually was also a strong, adventurous soul that yearned for more than just the average Sunday church experience. She carried on her shoulders the weight of all those that went before her – and the ones that would follow. Her direction in those early years would forever influence not only her own two children, but many, many others in the years to come, not to mention her large extended family. That search for truth, well, became a passion! And as with all passions, most need to be tempered with age and a bit of wisdom – the wisdom that comes from age.

Well, I can see that this is becoming more than just a journey for health….it is a revelation of my own personal history. However, one could say that our personal history is the thermometer of our personal health.

Now it’s time for you to ponder a few minutes and rewind that first pothole of your own…allow all those feelings to spring forth from your waterfall of memories and step back and view them from your new-found perspective! Turn it over and over in your mind’s eye … what do you see, what do you feel, what did it change in your life?

So much more I wanted to share….but there’s always room for tomorrow 🙂

Blessings & Peace