Sukkot 2020 musings

Posted by on Sep 24, 2021 in All Posts, Pams Ponderings, Sukkot | 0 comments

another message that needed to be shared twice 🙂

Sukkot 2020 was unique in so many ways.

Sukkot 2020 was easy…Sukkot 2020 was hard.

Sukkot 2020 was exhilerating…Sukkot 2020 was draining.

Sukkot 2020 was filled with laughter…Sukkot 2020 was drenched with tears.

Sukkot 2020 was all these and more!

This was the first year in exactly five years to the date that my first-born son, Jim, experienced a family Sukkot. This was the first year in five years that my son Jim laughed freely, embraced often and walked with head held high as his spirit touched the heavens. This was the first time in five years that our family celebrated the Feast of Tabernacles with friends.

This was also the first time in five years where his father, Jim, and his younger brother Jason – were missing from our group celebration. My husband, Jim, left this world almost two years ago and his younger brother and only sibling, Jason, left a year before his dad.  Their faces were missed around the camp and especially around the campfire. My heart rose and sank on various memories as the days went on during the 8 day Feast of our Lord.

It was probably the most difficult to go back to my tiny cabin at days end by myself and realize that … well, I was by myself. Some say it gets easier. I hope so. I don’t like feeling like this – and yet – it has been said that if I didn’t, then something else would be wrong … I get it. But it doesn’t really make it any easier. Having my husband by my side for almost 50 years and doing so much of the ‘little & big’ things – it’s hard to get used to doing it all myself.  And then of course….losing a child is never supposed to happen.

But with all that, Sukkot 2020 was still one to be remembered….one with more good memories than bad, more laughter than tears, more easy than hard…Sukkot 2020 was a blessing!




A Feast of “JOY”

Posted by on Sep 21, 2021 in All Posts, Sukkot | 0 comments

A Feast of “JOY”

Today is the first day of SUKKOT ~ the Feast of Tabernacles ~ A Feast of Joy.

Our family loves Sukkot – and has embraced the Festivals of the LORD as commanded in the Bible. If you’re asking what this is all about and why we (non-Jews) celebrate it, let me please share a bit of the why.

About 30 years ago, I started on a quest to find the ‘truth’. Back then, didn’t even know what I was searching for … just needed some answers because I was turning 30 and wanted to know ‘is this all there is’? Searching for answers and asking questions can get you in  a lot of trouble, especially if you buck the status quo.

Anyway, one thing led to another (and someday I’ll have to write a full report on it for the grandkids – maybe they’ll be interested), and here I am today, still searching, but with a whole lot more answers. One BIG answer was finding out that God (whom I now call by His Hebrew name, Yahovah) really did mean what He said. Why, He even said it was ‘forever‘ and had given us instructions on how He wanted to be worshiped! My question was, when did forever end?

After 1800 years of doing our own thing, all one had to do was actually read the bible and what do you know – from Genesis to Revelation – He was all about a restored Kingdom, a united Israel. So, how do we figure into that plan, you ask? Well, we figure into that plan quite a bit!

First of all, scripture tells us that there are two houses – remember reading that somewhere? The Northern Kingdom, and the Southern Kingdom.

In a nutshell, the Northern Kingdom was known as Ephraim (or Israel, or even sometimes Samaria) and the  Southern Kingdom was known as Judah. Assyria captured the Northern Kingdom and carried them off to Samaria. Judah and part of Benjamin, the Southern Kingdom, was later conquered by Babylon and carted off there. Judah finally returned to Jerusalem, but Ephraim/Israel never did…and were then considered the lost ten tribes. After Judah returned, the word ‘Jew’ came into existence. However, not all of Israel is from the tribe of Judah. There are eleven other tribes out there. Now, that is NOT to say that EVERYONE is descended from one of the twelve tribes of Israel. Absolutely NOT. Check this out:

KJV Ephesians 2:11 Wherefore remember, that ye being IN TIME PAST Gentiles in the flesh, who are called Uncircumcision by that which is called the Circumcision in the flesh made by hands; 12 That at that time ye were without Christ, being aliens from the commonwealth of Israel, and strangers from the covenants of promise, having no hope, and without God in the world

Did you catch that?? Read that last part again.

“Aliens from the commonwealth of ISRAEL”!!

What do you understand when you read that? Well, it can only be that NOW we are NOT Aliens and we ARE part of ISRAEL! It’s not about GENEALOGY – it’s about being part of the House! HalleluYAH!

Here’s a few more thought-provoking scriptures:

KJV Exodus 12:49 One law shall be to him that is homeborn, and unto the stranger that sojourneth among you.

KJV Joel 2:32 And it shall come to pass, that WHOSOEVER shall call on the name of the LORD shall be delivered: for in mount Zion and in Jerusalem shall be deliverance, as the LORD hath said, and in the REMNANT whom the LORD shall call.

KJV Romans 11:26 And so all Israel shall be saved: as it is written, There shall come out of Sion the Deliverer, and shall turn away ungodliness from Jacob:

KJV Romans 10:12 For there is no difference between the Jew and the Greek: for the same Lord over all is rich unto all that call upon him.

Now, after learning that little tidbit, it surely seemed that, well, if we’re part of Israel (grafted in, or of the bloodline), then the House must have rules! That is when I embraced all that Yahovah had written down in His word, perfected in His Son, Messiah Yeshua and perfectly walked out with all the disciples and early believers. Who was I to say they were all wrong and it needed to be changed in the 3rd century to what we have now?

So here I am, many years later, celebrating this first day of Sukkot. Each year is a bit different and this year is not an exception. This year, still reeling in the big C plandemic, amid the uncertainty of the validity of the past election, swirling in the total unrest of our country and the divisions among her people, we will all take the next 8 days to immerse ourselves into a time realm not of this world.

This year again, two precious members of our family will not celebrate with us. Our fearless leader, Jim Staley, my husband and father to my sons Jim and Jason will be missing in action for almost three years now. And my son Jason will be celebrating in another time realm as well. Both will be missed but we will continue to rejoice in the NOW and what we have regained with my oldest son, Jim being home and able to celebrate!

Today we come almost full circle, but totally full of JOY that THIS first day of Sukkot has arrived! Our entire family has come to love all the Feast Days of the LORD, but this Feast Day has come to carve out a special place in our hearts. It is an 8 day period with lots of festivities, food and fellowship. This particular Feast Day was the rehearsal for the wedding supper of the Lamb when He returns to marry His bride. And that last day, the 8th day? That would be the Last Great Day, the Rejoicing in the Torah (Simchat Torah) day. All nations, all people will be rejoicing as the Law will go out from Zion and everyone on earth will go for the Feast!

Our times together as a complete and whole family were amazing, but even when we weren’t together each of us separately were blessed. It seems we will have to wait a little bit longer until ALL time is reconciled and becomes ONE TIME ~ and then we will all sit together under one tent again. But I know the wait will be worth it!

Sukkot meanderings years back…

Posted by on Sep 20, 2021 in All Posts, Sukkot | 0 comments

Sukkot meanderings years back…

Memories…..this Sukkot was several years ago – when Jim & Jason were still here … miss them so much! So the following message is from a few years ago, but I needed to include it.


Well, we are meandering through the days of Sukkot – also known as the Feast of Tabernacles – with ups and downs and ins and outs. So many memories piled up so high and all jumbled up together that it will take months to separate them all out.

Today is the fourth day of the Sukkot round house hopping experience and tonight the rains have begun to patter on the roof. But our hearts are warm and the scriptures are still coming to life! As we take turns reading from the scriptures we ponder on the various meanings of Ezekiel and Zechariah….will we be ready?

The other night we sat around the bonfire, enjoying each others company, laughing and smiling and watching the children run to and fro. The lights from the Sukkah beckoned as we sat beneath it and enjoyed festive snacks and goodies.

Hope that each of you are taking time to enjoy these appointed days given to us by our Heavenly Father..they are such a blessing and I am so thankful to be able to KNOW about them! Want to know more? email me at


What a beautiful memory of  years ago Sukkot,

held by our very close friends, Terry & Jessica Styers …

The Feast of Tabernacles ~ Sukkot

Posted by on Sep 19, 2021 in All Posts, Sukkot | 0 comments

The Feast of Tabernacles ~ Sukkot

The Feast of Tabernacles- Sukkot

~An ingathering of rising up tents or booths; praising Yahweh for delivering us out of the land of Egypt; knowing HIS work had completed everything. They were to tell their children for all generations to always remember that Yahweh is their /our Elohim. ~

The Feast of Tabernacles, also known as Sukkot, is a celebration resting in Yahweh; remembering and praising HIM for delivering the Jews, and the mixed-multitude out of the Egyptians hands (slavery). This is also one of the three appointed times known as “Pilgrimages.”

The three pilgrimages are: Passover (Pesach), Pentecost (Shavuot), and Feast of Tabernacles (Sukkot). These appointed times, along with Unleavened Bread (Chag HaMatzah), First Fruits of Barley (Ha Bikkutium), Trumpets (Yom Teruah), and Day of Atonement (Yom Hakippurim/Kippur) are the appointed times of Yahweh, also known as the Moedim.

The Feast of Tabernacles (Sukkot) is the last fall feast, and the 7th Feast. It is very important to capture the connections. Sukkot is to rest, and the Sabbath is also on the last day of the week–7th day to rest in HIM as He has completed the week. Also on the day of creation, Adam and Eve were to rest on the 7th day. As you remember, they were created last on day 6. Many ask why they had to rest when they didn’t even work the garden for a week yet. It wasn’t anything they did or didn’t do to earn that rest. The Sabbath (day of rest) was blessed, sanctified, and made Holy. It is a remembrance that everything is completed in HIM. There isn’t anything we can do to improve what Yah has already done.

There are some very important connections to know:

• Yahweh’s 7th Spirit is Spirit of Fear (Reverence)/ Ruach Yirat Adonai.
• Characters: Humble, Quiet, Peaceful, Obedient, Respectful, Fearless of wickedness, and love.
• The 7th Hebrew letter is Zayin- Weapon cut off.
• Laodicea Church
• Justice of the People
• Kodesh (Holy)- Set Apart
• Perfection of the Spirit (Alowine, Creation Gospel)

Sukkot is a 7-day celebration, and the 8th day is a High Sabbath, and so is the 1st day of Sukkot. The number eight also resembles “New Beginnings.”

Leviticus 23:33-44
33 ADONAI said to Moshe,
34 “Tell the people of Isra’el, ‘On the fifteenth day of this seventh month is the feast of Sukkot for seven days to ADONAI.
35 On the first day there is to be a holy convocation; do not do any kind of ordinary work.
36 For seven days you are to bring an offering made by fire to ADONAI; on the eighth day you are to have a holy convocation and bring an offering made by fire to ADONAI ; it is a day of public assembly; do not do any kind of ordinary work
37 “‘These are the designated times of ADONAI that you are to proclaim as holy convocations and bring an offering made by fire to ADONAI -a burnt offering, a grain offering, a sacrifice and drink offerings, each on its own day –
38 besides the Shabbats of ADONAI, your gifts, all your vows and all your voluntary offerings that you give to ADONAI
39 “‘But on the fifteenth day of the seventh month, when you have gathered the produce of the land, you are to observe the festival of ADONAI seven days; the first day is to be a complete rest and the eighth day is to be a complete rest.
40 On the first day you are to take choice fruit, palm fronds, thick branches and river-willows, and celebrate in the presence of ADONAI your God for seven days.
41 You are to observe it as a feast to ADONAI seven days in the year; it is a permanent regulation, generation after generation; keep it in the seventh month.
42 You are to live in sukkot for seven days; every citizen of Isra’el is to live in a sukkah,
43 so that generation after generation of you will know that I made the people of Isra’el live in sukkot when I brought them out of the land of Egypt; I am ADONAI your God.’”
44 Thus Moshe announced to the people of Isra’el the designated times of ADONAI.

Deuteronomy 31: 10-13
10 Moshe gave them these orders: “At the end of every seven years, during the festival of Sukkot in the year of sh’mittah,
11 when all Isra’el have come to appear in the presence of ADONAI at the place he will choose, you are to read this Torah before all Isra’el, so that they can hear it.
12 Assemble the people-the men, the women, the little ones and the foreigners you have in your towns -so that they can hear, learn, fear ADONAI your God and take care to obey all the words of this Torah;
13 and so that their children, who have not known, can hear and learn to fear ADONAI your God, for as long as you live in the land you are crossing the Yarden to possess.”

Those with a willing and contrite heart were to bring their offering for the Tabernacle of Yahweh (God). It is a joyful act to the giver, as well as to the receiver—happiness. It is also a loving way to rejoice in all of HIS provisions he has given.

Exodus 40: 34-38
34 Then the cloud covered the tent of meeting, and the glory of ADONAI filled the tabernacle.
35 Moshe was unable to enter the tent of meeting, because the cloud remained on it, and the glory of ADONAI filled the tabernacle.
36 Whenever the cloud was taken up from over the tabernacle, the people of Isra’el continued with all their travels.
37 But if the cloud was not taken up, then they did not travel onward until the day when it was taken up.
38 For the cloud of ADONAI was above the tabernacle during the day, and fire was in [the cloud] at night, so that all the house of Isra’el could see it throughout all their travels.

In the days of Yeshua, there were two and a half million people who participate in the Feast of Tabernacles.


The singular word for booth is “Sukkah.” The sukkah was built with three enclosed sides, and one side left opened, with a curtain. The roof was to be made by things growing from the ground. Boughs of palm or willow tree were traditionally used. The roof must not be completely covered because the inhabitants of the sukkah must be able to see the stars. Rain must also be able to get in, but the roof must provide more shade than sun. (Moed Ministries).

It was commanded to rejoice! Imagine that? Our Yahweh (God) wants us to have a party and have no complaints. HA HA!

They all sang the Hallel Psalms 113-118, Isaiah 12:3, and from the song of Moses.

Isaiah 12:3 (CJB)
Then you will joyfully draw water
from the springs of salvation.

WHO is the living water? Yeshua, and “Yeshua” means Salvation!

Psalm 118:14-15 (CJB)
14 Yah is my strength and my song,
and he has become my salvation.
15 The sound of rejoicing and victory
is heard in the tents of the righteous:
“ADONAI’s right hand struck powerfully!

Exodus 15:1-2 (CJB)
15 Then Moshe and the people of Isra’el sang this song to ADONAI:
“I will sing to ADONAI, for he is highly exalted:
the horse and its rider he threw in the sea.
2 Yah is my strength and my song,
and he has become my salvation.
This is my God: I will glorify him;
my father’s God: I will exalt him.

“At the Feast of Tabernacles, the priests were divided up into three groups. With two and a half million people, they needed every priest available. One group of priests took care of all the offerings and sacrifices. The second group, headed by the high priest, was in charge of the drawing of the water for the water pouring ceremony. The third group went to the willows to cut the willows from the brook to satisfy the requirement to rejoice with the willows of the brook. The group headed by the high priest went out the Water Gate, the southern gate, down to the pool of Siloam. The priest used a golden vase to draw the water from the pool. The water was known as living water. The high priest’s assistant had a silver vase filled with wine. At the head of the large procession, the high priest carried the living water back to the temple.

The third group of priests went out of the Beautiful Gate, the eastern gate, down to Motzah valley, and cut willow branches 25-30 feet in length. They also traveled back up to the temple in a procession lined with singing people. Each of the pilgrims had a “lulav” consisting of myrtle, willow, and palm branch, and an Etrog (citron fruit). They would wave their lulavs and sing the same Psalms as the first group. The priests would stand in procession 30 feet apart, take one step, wave the willow, then take another step. The wave of the willows created a wind which represents the Spirit of Yahweh (Ruach ha’Kodesh). They did this all the way up to the temple.

As the two groups converged on the temple, another priest stood on the southeast corner of the temple wall and played the flute calling them into the temple. Since the flute was the pierced instrument, he was called the pierced one.” (Moed Ministries)

Isn’t this incredible?!

Yeshua is the Living Water. The pierced one summoning both the Holy Spirit, and the living water “sent out” from the pool of Siloam to the temple (Moed Ministries)!

The shofar was blown three times while the priests walked around the altar pouring the water and wine on the altar.

When Yeshua died on the tree/cross, that tree/cross was the altar, and like the water and wine, His blood and water that poured out!! This is incredible!

Many have asked what does the name “Emmanuel” mean?
It means “ YHVH (God) is with us.”

John 1:14 (CJB)
14 The Word became a human being and lived with us,
and we saw his Sh’khinah,
the Sh’khinah of the Father’s only Son,
full of grace and truth.

Matthew 1:23 (CJB)
23 “The virgin will conceive and bear a son,
and they will call him ‘Immanu El.”[a]

Now we can understand that He (God) would dwell with us in the Tabernacle of Messiah’s Body.

Yeshua was born during the Feast of Tabernacles, hence the word “Tabernacle.”

Let’s first delve into some additional insight:

Yochanan the Immerser (John the Baptist) was born during Passover (Feast of Pesach), six months before Yeshua was born. Yochanan was born first to tell them the “Light of the World” was coming.

Luke 1:17 (CJB)
17 He will go out ahead of ADONAI in the spirit and power of Eliyahu to turn the hearts of fathers to their children[a] and the disobedient to the wisdom of the righteous, to make ready for ADONAI a people prepared.”

Matthew 17:10-13 (CJB)
10 The talmidim asked him, “Then why do the Torah-teachers say that Eliyahu must come first?” 11 He answered, “On the one hand, Eliyahu is coming and will restore all things; 12 on the other hand, I tell you that Eliyahu has come already, and people did not recognize him but did whatever they pleased to him. In the same way, the Son of Man too is about to suffer at their hands.” 13 Then the talmidim understood that he was talking to them about Yochanan the Immerser.

The Messiah was born six months after Yochanan, and He was born on Feast of Tabernacles, which places his conception during Chanukah—Festival of Lights–The Light of the World! This is brilliant!! Hidden in plain sight!!

John 1:4-9 (CJB)
4 In him was life,
and the life was the light of mankind.
5 The light shines in the darkness,
and the darkness has not suppressed it.
6 There was a man sent from God whose name was Yochanan. 7 He came to be a testimony, to bear witness concerning the light; so that through him, everyone might put his trust in God and be faithful to him. 8 He himself was not that light; no, he came to bear witness concerning the light.
9 This was the true light,
which gives light to everyone entering the world.

Now if you reread that verse, we see plainly that “Light” was written (7) times. Looking back in the beginning of this blog– Feast of Tabernacles, we are reminded that (7) represents “Completeness in HIM.” Are you seeing any connections yet?

It’s so amazing what YHVH has set before us in the Word, and how many of us have missed this because we have blindly accepted “Doctrines of Man,” ignoring or not knowing HIS Appointed times? I am sure He desires and longs for us to “Tabernacle” with Him.

Many say Yeshua (Jesus) was born on December 25th. Biblically, that is incorrect, as the winters are too harsh for travel. The travelers would have to travel very far, and certainly, the shepherds would not have their sheep and lambs far up in the hills in December!! And from the verses presented, we must stay in HIS Word; seek HIS Way (not ours).

Proverbs 14:12 (CJB)
12 There can be a way which seems right to a person,
but at its end are the ways of death.

The truth shall set us free!

John 8:32 (CJB)
32 you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”

Lastly, the census was taken during the Feast of Tabernacles because that was during God’s appointed time for the pilgrimages to be made when everyone gathered. Now, one can begin to understand why there wasn’t any room at the Inn. Joseph (Yosef), Miriam (Mary) and Yeshua stayed in a SUKKAH, not a stable, for the light and glory entered the world WHO would then tabernacle with us (John 1:14)!!

May your Sukkot be blessed!

Shamira the Shepherdess (P. Miller)


This was an article posted by a good friend, Pam Miller, on her blog – it was so thorough and extremely well written that I wanted to share it with all of you. Enjoy!

Shabbat Ponderings before SUKKOT!

Posted by on Sep 18, 2021 in All Posts, Feast Days, Sabbath Musings | 1 comment

Shabbat Ponderings before SUKKOT!

Updated note: This came across my blog feed from five years ago, felt it was still good to share …..and while my oldest son is now home among us, his father and his only brother, Jason are here only in spirit. But through the tears, my heart rejoices for the blessing of having Jim home and all of them in my heart! 10-2-20

Updated updated note: all of the above … only one year later 2021

Today is a day of Shabbat…a day of peace and blessing and yes, I must admit, a bit of testing out the Sukkah a few days before the Feast.  The tiny makeshift canopy blowSukkah 2016ing in the wind above me is minuscule compared to the enormous, glorious expanse above – the canopy of the Creator of heaven and earth!

The fall beauty of the changing colors surrounding me test my ability to concentrate on what I will be sharing tomorrow with friends and family. Those grey tailed squirrels demand attention  as they come within a few feet to bury their winter treasures in the ground, stamp it with their tiny feet and mark the spot for later retrieval. My feathered friends are in full chorus and the wind breathes quickly around me every few minutes chasing the leaves that have fallen across the yard. Yes, it is very difficult to concentrate!  Maybe I’ll just sit here a few and soak it all in and refresh my own spirit and body.

Truly, even with all that has gone on this past year I can seriously say I am blessed beyond measure…truly and sincerely blessed. Reflecting on decisions made (or not made) throughout the month of Elul, then silently coming into the throne room on Yom Kippur to witness the sealing of the books, and now looking forward with great anticipation to Sukkot – it has all been a roller coaster ride. But I am still in a reflective mood, we have five days inbetween the Sealing of the Books (Yom Kippur) and the arrival of the season of our JOY (Sukkot)….and for me, on this day, this Shabbat seems to be a breathing experience. So, let me breathe.

As the morning passes, reflections of the past year swirl around me, rising and falling with the breath of the winds. The heartbreaking moments of the past year push their way to the top of the ladder first (don’t they always?).  As the memories swirl, like the scattering leaves, they play with the heartstrings deep within. It’s as if it were yesterday that we watched our oldest son leave on Sukkot for what he thought was a short trip to sign papers, to being accosted without jim-praynotice and taken into custody.  The heartbreak and disbelief of having so little time with him during our first reconciled Sukkot together was like a cruel and inhuman joke. The heartbreak of this happening on his second oldest daughter’s 14th birthday was almost too much to bear. How much can a person endure? Being estranged from him and his family was painful enough, but to be reconciled for such a short time…one really had to lift a fist to the heavens. And yes, I certainly did that too! But the fist raised in anger and bitterness, gave way to a body bent in prayer asking for forgiveness.

After Jim was taken, months of unbelief and living in limbo went by, there were days without end filled with turmoil for our family and for the ministry that we brought forth ten years ago. And then came even more heartache. The ministry birthed as Passion for Truth was dying. We knew it would happen – but that didn’t make it any less painful. However, the message and the one who presented the message he was given, is still very much alive and still on fire for his  King, even maybe more so! I praise His Holy Name for that gift of faith that my son has been able to hold onto through this ordeal! Through this entire tumultuous period of our lives, even though many made a multitude of mistakes, there were extremely valuable lessons learned. Our family turned inward, began to truly hear the Voice of the Almighty, began to heal our hearts, even to soften our hearts to those involved, and yes, to even look inward at the pain we had caused by our own actions. Even those that have chosen to separate themselves from us – we hold them still in our hearts and pray for the day we are reunited. All that to say that today, is a new beginning.…what that will look like in real time, is still unknown. Sukkot is approaching and tomorrow will be filled with JOY …. HIS JOY!

As those scattered leaves drift back and forth across the yard, memories shift and blessings begin to rise to the surface. Blessings such as repaired relationships within our family. Our hearts have been tested by the fires of tribulation and many will never be able to understand how deep those fires were, yet we are still ‘whole’ … we are still celebrating each and every day under the canopy of peace and harmony of our Master Himself. And that canopy, that shelter hat He has provided, is open for all to share – it has no walls and all are welcome to enter.

So this season, this Sukkot, this season of our JOY, our sukkah is built and is open to all – we pray for those that are estranged from us in this season, and we bless them.  We pray that the Father will acknowledge our tries of reconciliation, our efforts to stand in the gap, and in His timing, produce a body composed of peace and harmony. May the prisons that hold each of us captive find ourselves released from our prejudices, our agendas, our differences and be united in HIM and once again become a body that promotes peace and harmony, sitting under the shelter of HIS canopy.

May the Lord bless you and keep you. May the Lord make his face to shine upon you, and be gracious to you. May the Lord lift up his countenance upon you, and give you peace.

This year, 2021, Praise His Holy Name, I will be celebrating with my son and his family and the remnant of PFT 2.0praising

Yom Kippur… At-One-Ment

Posted by on Sep 16, 2021 in All Posts, All Things Biblical, Journey thru Garden, Yom Kippur | 0 comments


Yes…today is the day of being AT ONE with the King of Kings and Lord of Lords... this is the day when heaven meets earth…the spark touches the source and your essence is one with the Flame.

Are you asking why?

Simply put, it is because the Holy One Himself told us to….no other reason than that.

But I’m not a Jew! I’m not religious like that! Seriously, lady you don’t know what you’re talking about!

Neither am I, nor am I religious and it’s not me talking….it’s the Great I AM.

Leviticus 16:29 mandates establishment of this holy day on the 10th day of the 7th month as the day of atonement for sins. It calls it the Sabbath of Sabbaths and a day upon which one must afflict one’s soul.

Leviticus 23:27 decrees that Yom Kippur is a strict day of rest.

So if you believe in scripture – all of it – then He is speaking to you – because you are part of Israel “For if you belong to Messiah, you are Abraham’s descendants, heirs according to promise” (Gal. 3:29).  You become the Commonwealth of Israel thru Yeshua according to Ephesians 2:11…

 11 Therefore remember that formerly you, the Gentiles in the flesh, who are called “Uncircumcision” by the so-called “Circumcision,” which is performed in the flesh by human hands— 12 remember that you were at that time separate from Christ, excluded from the commonwealth of Israel, and strangers to the covenants of promise, having no hope and without God in the world. 13 But now in Christ Jesus you who formerly were far off have been brought near by the blood of Christ. 14 For He Himself is our peace, who made both groups into one and broke down the barrier of the dividing wall

Is that not amazing!!!?? Challenge yourself to look into the scriptures a bit deeper … go beyond your safe box, your doctrine and man-made traditions, and hear what the Most High God has to say to … you.

Today is the day! Be AT ONE with your King!

Erev Yom Kippur

Posted by on Sep 15, 2021 in All Posts, Days of Awe, Elul | 0 comments

Erev Yom Kippur

remember, this is from Orthodoxy….allow the Ruach haKodesh to sift through the words, and speak to your heart…

Tishrei 9, Erev Yom Kippur


Tonight we will begin a 25-hour fast of Yom Kippur.  We don’t do this in order to afflict ourselves, which is the purpose of the fast of Tisha B’Av when we mourn the destruction of the Temple—indeed Yom Kippur is not a day of mourning but a day of joy. We fast on Yom Kippur because on this day we want to transcend our physical limitations and be like angels, and food and other physical concerns distract us from our spiritual selves.

Some people may complain that the hunger distracts them from concentrating on the prayers and rituals of the day.  But this is precisely the Yom Kippur challenge—not to be overly focused on the physical.

Use the opportunity of not eating and not drinking to allow yourself to experience the food and drink that comes from deep within. Fasting will then become a very freeing experience.

Yom Kippur is one day in the year when you can access the deepest part of your soul. But this is only possible if you create the space for it. Your soul—every soul—has a still, soft voice that emits a unique hum. This sound can only be heard if you lower the noise in your life that usually drowns out your inner voice.

On Yom Kippur, when the “source” is nearest to the “spark” of your soul, you want to remove as many material distractions as you can, so that your soul can sing freely and your “spark” can dance.

When you experience Yom Kippur this way—which does take effort, and that’s why you need to prepare for it—then it will be for you not a day when you feel hungry, but a day when you feel angelic.

The same holds true for the other prohibitions of Yom Kippur—against bathing, anointing, marital relations, wearing leather, etc.—all of which are meant to detach us as much as possible from the physical realm so that we can be free to experienced the spiritual one.

Instead of indulging in physical pleasures, we spend the day in the cocoon of a synagogue where we are cut off from the outside world. We spend the day in prayer—our whole intention being to transcend the physical world, our material home, and to travel inward toward our purest spiritual selves—toward our true home in G-d.


Before darkness falls, marking the official beginning of the 10th day of Tishrei which is Yom Kippur, in every synagogue in the world a haunting melody is sang—Kol Nidrei.

Kol Nidrei means “All Vows” and its classic text, repeated three times, each time louder, is a renunciation of all oaths and vows.

It seems strange to begin the holiest day of the yea—the day which we spend asking G-d to forgive us for all transgressions—by breaking former promises.

But Kol Nidrei is not that. Kol Nidrei is the process through which we enter the holiest day of the year.

A neder is not just the vow/promise that you vocalize to another person, it is a word that denotes all commitments, attachments, and ties that bind you.

By renouncing “all vows” you are declaring your commitment to break the bonds that keep you from traveling on the journey within, that keep you from opening yourself to the Yom Kippur experience.

Obviously, this does not mean forsaking healthy commitments and responsibilities—it means forsaking those attachments that limit you, that entangle and entrap you.

That is the essential focus of Kol Nidrei. It is a perfect prayer to begin Yom Kippur with because unless you free yourself from such traps you cannot travel inward; with a ball and chain attached to you, you are not going to be able to get anywhere.

Kol Nidrei is repeated three times to relate to vows in speech, vows in deed, and vows in thought:

All vows and things we have made forbidden on ourselves… we regret having made them, may they all be permitted, forgiven, eradicated, and nullified, and may they not be valid or exist any longer.  Our vows shall no longer be vows, and our prohibitions shall no longer be prohibited, and our oaths are no longer oaths.

Are you ready for Yom Kippur?

Posted by on Sep 15, 2021 in All Posts, Days of Awe, Elul, Feast Days, Resources, Yom Kippur | 0 comments

Are you ready for Yom Kippur?

Yom Kippur

the Day of Atonement.

Are you ready? If you are asking “ready for what?” than let me explain.

The Day of Atonement is the holiest day of the year for all of Judaism and is one of the Feast Days of the LORD listed in Leviticus 23. Read that last part again, one of the FEAST DAYS OF THE LORD.

Yes, that’s right, the Holy One Himself, (no matter what you call him – Yahovah, Yahweh, God) designed this day as one of HIS feast days and commanded all those that followed Him to honor them for eternity. Well, that about says it all – and that is what spearheaded my search for truth and eventually led me to give up my generations of ‘churchianity‘ and caused me to seek out the footprints of the Messiah and try to walk as he walked. When I read that it was to be kept for all eternity and for all our generations, well, someone tell me when eternity ended?! So until that day, I’ll continue to honor and obey the King of Kings and serve Him as He desires.

So here we are, the sixth feast day is fast approaching and it’s not too late for you to join in withholyofholies all of Israel as they prepare their hearts to recognize the King as the books of life and death are sealed. One day, in the future, this scenario will play out in real life. The nations of the earth will finally be judged, each person will be judged and it will be in real time. So I ask you again, are you ready?

When you read the Torah you can see that this is the only time during the entire year that the High Priest could enter the Holy of Holies. He did so to offer a blood sacrifice for the sins of all Israel. Understanding this sacrifice, or the ‘life for life’ principle is necessary to understand  that the High Priest is the only one that can make intercession on behalf of the people. And our Messiah, Yeshua (Jesus) did this once and for all – he gave his all for each of us.

According to the sages, man was created for the sake of teshuvah (תְּשׁוּבָה). The Day of “at-one-ment,”  begins at nightfall on Tishri 9 and continues 25 hours through the next day until nightfall. This day is marked as a solemn day and the traditions are of complete fasting, a day of prayer and going to synagogue. This is the day when we draw the closest to God – denying the pleasures of this world – so that we can reach a deeper level within ourselves in order to hear that still small voice within. It is not a typical ‘fast’.

When Moses first ascended Mount Sinai to receive the Torah (Pentecost – or in Hebrew Shavuot) it was seven weeks after the Exodus (which was exactly 49 days!) and the Hebrew date was Sivan 6. Then, 40 days later on the 17th of Tammuz he came back down to witness the golden calf incident and the tablets were violently smashed. And what did the shepherd of all shepherds do after that? Did he give up, walk away or rant and rave? No…he did not. He interceded for all of Israel for another forty days! He spent from Elul 1 to Yom moses_israel_camp_sinaiKippur (Tishri 10), another 40 days, pleading with Yahovah to spare all of them. Not only did the Holy One forgive all of Israel, He also revealed His name to Moshe (Exodus 34:4-8) and as Moshe returned to the camp, his face shone with the radiance of the shekinah itself! We too can experience this type of closeness with our Creator. Those last forty days that Moshe spent on the Sinai pleading for all Israel is the same time period we have just come through – and we are about to enter that last day.

If you are not currently celebrating the Feast Days of the LORD, prayerfully consider if you should. In my own journey, it began with the Sabbath. How can one just simply ignore one of the top commandments in the 10 we say we follow? It just wouldn’t leave my mind and my heart was drawn to find out if it was something that I should be doing. Well, 30 years later, I know it was the right thing to do, and I am still practicing and learning how He wants to be pleased. Man’s traditions and doctrines have given way to be able to walk in the footsteps of the Messiah. My King set these days in place in the beginning as a blueprint of what was and what will be and they will endure until He returns. Until then, I’ll keep practicing and rehearsing.


May you also experience the heights of a Mt. Sinai revelation!

Days of Awe – Day 10

Posted by on Sep 14, 2021 in All Posts, All Things Biblical, Days of Awe, Yom Kippur | 0 comments

It is that time. It is the 10th day of the Seventh Month of the Biblical Calendar. It is our APPOINTED TIME. This is THAT DAY.

This is the day time and eternity, darkness and light, hope and despair, good and evil, life and death, all take their turns wrestling with each other over our souls.

Today we taste of death. Today we are called upon to appear before, give an account to, and receive a decree from our Creator.

We are poured out like water, and all our bones are out of joint;
Our hearts are like wax; they have melted within us.
Our strength is dried up like a potsherd,
and our tongues cling to our jaws;
You have brought us to the dust of death.

On this 10th and climactic Day of Awe, called Yom Ha-Kippurim [i.e. the Day of the Coverings], we relive, in our own flesh, the experience of Adam in the Garden, when he was called upon – with the scent of the juice of the fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil still on his breath – to respond to the Creator’s piercing inquiry of ‘Ayeicha?’ [‘Where are You?’].

On this day, if we do not cave in to fear, we strengthen ourselves in the inner man by reconnecting with the tenth prophetic life-empowerment our Beloved Creator gave us on Mount Sinai.
This empowerment begins:

לֹא תַחְמֹד בֵּית רֵעֶךָ לֹֽא־תַחְמֹד אֵשֶׁת רֵעֶךָ
transliteration: lo tachmod beit re’echa lo tachmod esheh re’echa
approximate translation: you will not desire or take delight in your neighbor’s house; you will not desire or take delight in your neighbor’s wife. . .

The scope of the lo tachmod empowerment does not stop with houses and women. It goes on to include everything else in this world which we might see in the possession of someone else and want for ourselves. Indeed, it covers all of the things of this world.

Wherever a man’s treasure is, there lies his heart. Wherever a man’s delight is, there lies his passion. As a man thinks in his heart, so is he.

The lo tachmod empowerment reaches the deepest parts of man’s soul. This empowerment does not focus upon his behavior or even his speech. It does not even stop with the realm of a man’s conscious deliberation. It goes deeper still. It invades the deepest, hidden realms of man’s subconscious thought life. It penetrates to the core. It reaches into the hidden folds of the mind, the secret chambers of the heart, and the mystic recesses of the will. It touches us at the most vulnerable pressure points of desire, delight, appetite, urge, impulse, inclination, and dream. It exposes us our our most sensitive flesh-protected places of motivation, attitude, opinion, and craving.

This life-changing empowerment is the essential key to denying self. It is the open door to dying to the flesh.

It is the Creator’s way of prophetically empowering us to take captive every thought and make it obedient to our purpose, our destiny, and our mission.

It is the primary medium given for us to connect our lives with first the crucifixion, then the resurrection, of Messiah.

It is how our Creator empowers us to overcome the world.

And now you understand, Dear One, why we have to die today. We have to die today because we have a much more meaningful life to live on the other side of the death to self that we – and the world – so desperately need at such a time as this.

Excuse me now – my name is being called. See you on the other side!



Much thanks to my friend Bill Bullock who writes under the title of “Rabbi’s Son” … as the Rabbi’s daughter myself …. these messages have found their way into my heart, into my soul…into the depths of who I want to be…….thank you Father for inspiring him and for his obedience!

Tishrei 7 – Forgiveness

Posted by on Sep 13, 2021 in All Posts, Days of Awe, Elul | 0 comments

Tishrei 7 – Forgiveness

Tishrei 7


Yom Kippur, which is only three days away, is called the “Day of Forgiveness” because this is the day when Moses, after pleading with G-d for 80 days to forgive the Israelites for the Sin of the Golden Calf, finally succeeded.  On this day, G-d finally said to him: “I will forgive as you have asked.”

On Yom Kippur we seek to connect to the energy of this awesome day and win forgiveness for ourselves as well.  But we can hardly expect to be forgiven by G-d if we ourselves have not been willing to forgive others.

Forgiveness is not easy; it requires work. But, most importantly, it requires a connection to God, the Giver of Life .

The secret of being able to forgive others is to remember that God gave you life because you matter to Him—you have a vital and irreplaceable role to play in the perfection of His world.  When you remember that, you can have the strength to rise above the pain others have caused you and forgive both them and yourself.

The word for “forgiveness” in Hebrew, mechilah, is related to the word machol meaning “circle.” Life is meant to be a circle encompassing all our experiences and relationships in one harmonious, seamless whole. When someone hurts us the circle is broken. Forgiveness is the way we mend the fracture.

Forgiveness means not merely forgiving the person who hurt us, but forgiving ourselves, forgiving God, forgiving even life itself with all its bizarre and often cruel twists and turns.

When you forgive, the circle is again complete and you find yourself encompassed by the wholeness of God’s creation of which you are an integral part. And then you can have the confidence that this Yom Kippur you will hear God saying to you: “I will forgive as you have asked.”
Ask yourself: Whom have you hurt? Who has hurt you?

Exercise for the day:
– Make a list of those whom you must forgive.
– Make a list of those whom you must ask for forgiveness.
– Begin.



Excerpt from 60 Days: A Spiritual Guide to the High Holidays, by Simon Jacobson.